Month: March 2023
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My house & the black dog
Last night I dreamt that I lived in a rickety wooden house on top of a grassy hill. The house was dark & there were old unused things outside like a recycling pile, possibly useful but mostly old junk. A handsome man had moved in next door & he came by & took some items…
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True sight
I had a dream last night, I was with my partner at an event & there were people everywhere. For some reason there was a waiter bringing us food & no one else. I felt a bit embarrassed & it felt unfair that we had food & others didn’t. Yet the food that came was…
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The garden
Sometimes I imagine people as flowers in a garden. Every colour, shape & fragrance just waiting to burst free. Some are delicate & graceful, only living a day & withering with the hot sun or bending with the first breath of wind. Whilst others stand strong & robust able to withstand all of nature’s passionate…
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Safety
I realised today I look for safety outside myself in the things & people around me. I “have” a partner. Hmmm have is an interesting word. We have made a commitment, but I don’t own him. He is not under my control. He is free to do as he pleases. I don’t really have him…
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Resting in trust
When I don’t trust myself I cannot find joy. I feel insecure & unsafe. I was looking for safety outside myself because I didn’t trust me. I was too scared to lean in & fall/fail. What if I say or do the wrong thing? It’s so tiring. When I don’t trust I feel like I’m…
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Trust
Trust is something I struggle with. Trusting myself & trusting others. Why is this? It is because I fear that when I lean back into the essence of myself I will fall into an abyss. I don’t know what I will find there. I don’t trust my deep inner core, so I build a wall…
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Holding on
I had been having dreams of needing to find a toilet & getting lost in mazes or finding a toilet, but it is so disgusting & putrid with excrement everywhere. When I could use it, the flush wouldn’t work or it will come back up spilling everywhere. I finally worked out what it is trying…
A Little Art ‘n Soul by Taysha Barrett 