Trust is something I struggle with. Trusting myself & trusting others. Why is this?

It is because I fear that when I lean back into the essence of myself I will fall into an abyss. I don’t know what I will find there. I don’t trust my deep inner core, so I build a wall to it. I stop others climbing this wall & don’t allow them to get too close for fear of what I may find beyond their walls. What if they hurt me or I them?

I remember I am an eternal soul. It’s so easy to forget. What does that even mean? I can’t imagine eternal, forever, ongoing. I can only imagine now, here.

So I lean back & feel what is there in this eternal heart space. I am being held. When I feel into the space that I fear of finding a dark abyss, I only find warmth & love.

I remember I am held by God, the cosmic intelligence, life force, evolution, eternal love.

This I can trust. I remember we are all held by this love.

I’ve just started reading The Prophet by Kahlil Gibran & this quote captured me:

“When you love you should not say, “God is in my heart”, but rather “I am in the heart of God”.”

Practice: imagine leaning back & resting in the heart of God. Be held. Be loved. There is nothing more to do.