I was shown today how much I am a dam blocking the stream of my life. I hold tight to people, places, things stopping their flow and mine.

I see we are all interweaved threads, connected to each other creating a magnificent tapestry as all of our stories entwine. But more than that we are also streams flowing.

Threads are rigid, they can tangle and break, they can get stuck. I was stuck. I was trying so hard to be on the right path, not knowing what that path was but feeling like I was failing and so I would try harder, holding on tighter and tighter. Not knowing what to do and feeling lost, broken and so tired.

Let go. Let it flow.

I see myself as a river of colours, not one colour or shape, nothing to fix or hold onto. If I try to stay here the place I know and love and feel safe, I get stuck.

Imagine you are a bird so in love with the tree you are on and so scared to leave it, not knowing what lies beyond it, that you miss out on the magic of flight. I see the beautiful birds enjoying life, enjoying the sensation of flight, the feeling of the wind and sun on their wings. Finding new vantage points and discovering new ways to connect and create. New flight patterns, new sensations, new environments, new friends. There is a freedom and a discovery, a sense of adventure, a love of life. There is something to sing about.

I see myself as a drop of water in the river, trying hard to stay in the place I feel safe, where it is beautiful. I try so hard and battle against the currents, that I bash against the rocks and start to drown… let go. Release. Trust…

Feel the current of the river, trust it and release into it. Allow yourself as the drop of water to be gently carried on to new places and adventures, in the middle of the stream where there are no obstacles. It is safe. Feel the safety there. Recognise yourself as the drop and also the river, how can you be separate?

Release the dams of attachment, all the material stopping your flow as though removing sticks and debri stopping the river from flowing. Feel the water and trust it. Let it be whatever colour and shape it needs to be. Let it morph and change to suit the environment and situation.

Let the pain go, release it with the debri. Forgiveness is releasing bonds tying you to another. Set yourself and them free and flow again.