This statement came to me this morning as I fed the chickens and enjoyed the light gentle rain. As awareness I could filter my experience of the rain to feel fear or annoyance and act accordingly or I could enjoy the experience of getting wet and again act & feel accordingly. Each choice would create different chemistry in my body and a different experience of reality which would lead to different actions and outcomes. It’s about choosing how to feel and act in any given situation.

Am I a victim or am I empowered?

I can see how I have made myself into a victim. In that I would view my life’s experiences as scary or potentially threatening. I view them as happening to me and I am afraid of this loss of control as I fear they may cause pain to myself or others. For example, the phone rings: What do they want? Is it something I can’t or don’t want to do? As a victim, I am afraid of what will be asked of me. I am afraid of saying no and how they will react. I am afraid of the unknown and can’t find the power within me to handle the situation with grace. I fear how I will handle it. Will I fail? Will I fall or worse cause others pain?

My body and nervous system has become so wound up by trying to control my environment and remove myself from any perceived threatening situations that it is hard to relax and even harden to enjoy myself. Yet nothing can hurt me. There is no threat. It is all my perception. It is a pattern that has been with me since childhood and I have convinced my body it is under constant threat and my body has produced the chemicals to accommodate that threat creating a real sensation of fear.

I now practice remembering who I am as the intelligent light. As the light, nothing can hurt me. I am safe. Always & forever. I can access this inner power of grace as I feel the light within my body animating my cells and radiating with love. This love and power of grace is always present when I allow its presence, when I choose it.

This power I claim. This light can never be separated from me and is my source of power. It can never be destroyed. I am not a victim, but if I believe that I am under threat and act accordingly, that will be my reality. My reality becomes my perception of it as I act and create body chemistry accordingly. I have the power to choose this grace.