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It’s not about me

It’s not about me, it is fair. I have enough & I’ll give you my share. Can’t you see. I am alive & I have more than I need… As a child of the 80’s where excess and greed was the game, the idea of not having enough was prominent. Inequality and the survival instinct…
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The river of life

I was shown today how much I am a dam blocking the stream of my life. I hold tight to people, places, things stopping their flow and mine. I see we are all interweaved threads, connected to each other creating a magnificent tapestry as all of our stories entwine. But more than that we are…
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Eye of the storm

Imagine there is a dot on a piece of paper. It is I am. This is me, you, everyone. Here I am whole. I am healed. I am love. There is nothing to do. Nothing to achieve. There is no separation, no pain, no suffering. There is only peace. There is love and total connection.…
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I forget I can choose how I feel

When I am I lost in my old patterns and beliefs I can easily spiral into negative thinking. For my whole life I have learnt to be on edge, that the world is not safe. That I am not safe. That I need to be ready to fight or flee, but often resulting in debilitating…
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Being the tree

I was thinking about the labels we put on things and how this really limits knowing something deeply. There are studies showing that when children are learning to draw, that once they are shown how to draw something, they stop looking at the thing itself. It becomes known and reduced to what was shown to…
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My house & the black dog

Last night I dreamt that I lived in a rickety wooden house on top of a grassy hill. The house was dark & there were old unused things outside like a recycling pile, possibly useful but mostly old junk. A handsome man had moved in next door & he came by & took some items…
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True sight

I had a dream last night, I was with my partner at an event & there were people everywhere. For some reason there was a waiter bringing us food & no one else. I felt a bit embarrassed & it felt unfair that we had food & others didn’t. Yet the food that came was…
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The garden

Sometimes I imagine people as flowers in a garden. Every colour, shape & fragrance just waiting to burst free. Some are delicate & graceful, only living a day & withering with the hot sun or bending with the first breath of wind. Whilst others stand strong & robust able to withstand all of nature’s passionate…
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Safety
I realised today I look for safety outside myself in the things & people around me. I “have” a partner. Hmmm have is an interesting word. We have made a commitment, but I don’t own him. He is not under my control. He is free to do as he pleases. I don’t really have him…
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Resting in trust
When I don’t trust myself I cannot find joy. I feel insecure & unsafe. I was looking for safety outside myself because I didn’t trust me. I was too scared to lean in & fall/fail. What if I say or do the wrong thing? It’s so tiring. When I don’t trust I feel like I’m…
